I am entering these posts into the blog during the summer of 2021. These entries were taken from handwritten journals that I kept during our first adoptions. We had a failed adoption from Guatemala at the end of 2002. Cam entered our lives in the very first days of 2003 through domestic adoption, quite a bit of pain was endured during that time. If only I had known then what I know now.
I turned 24 yesterday. I can’t even believe it. I started writing in this journal when I was 19. So much has changed. Marriage, a first house, the decision to adopt. So many changes.
The situation in Guatemala in regard to Madi’s adoption hasn’t been good lately. Our adoption agency told us last week that Madi either has Herpes or Herpangina. They can’t tell from the medical records they were given. There is a huge difference. No one can answer whether this is a new infection or old medical records. No one can answer when the infection occurred. Was it an in utero exposure? Or is this a run of the mill childhood illness? We won’t know.
We are still waiting for authorization from the U.S. Embassy to do DNA testing. That means no samples have even been drawn yet. INS has also decided that it would be best to physically interview each and every birth mother. I don’t pretend to understand why. It means more delays. We will now miss Madi’s first birthday.
I’m looking for ways to stay in Guatemala for the last part of the process, even though it would be so hard to just up and leave and move to a foreign country.