The entry I thought I would never have to write…

We need a miracle.  Really.  A miracle.  We have one more ‘hale mary’ meeting on Monday and then I will need to decide what happens to my kids.  The probability is that they won’t be coming home with me.  I can’t believe I’m writing these words.  I can’t believe any of this.

I’m asking everyone out there who prays to pray for our kids.  They are caught in the legal limbo of not being ours or their biological mother’s anymore.  There is a good probability that a large portion of our adoption will need to be re-done, if that is even possible.

I am here with two other super moms.  Two other absolutely dynamite women, the only people who have fought along side me every single step of the way.  The two that will ride home with me, alone, if we should fail.  I wish the five little voices on the phone line every night understood why they might not ever meet their new brother and sister.  I wish the two that are snoring softly next to me didn’t have to watch me cry outside the embassy, in the cab, in front of the Social Welfare building and basically very other second of the day.  I wish they weren’t so scared.  I wish they hadn’t just began to call me “mom” today.

If anyone has any advice, please let me know.  We’re taking all suggestions to heart now.  Otherwise, please pray for the FullPlateFamily, the Busath Family and the Martin Family.  We would like to go home now, together.

who feels like one more ‘hale mary’ might be one more than she can bear.

10 thoughts on “The entry I thought I would never have to write…

  1. This is all just so devastating. It must be a horrible thing to go through. We are always keeping you in our prayers and will begin to pray harder.

  2. I will fast for you guys again this Sunday. Matthew 17: And Jesus rebuked the devil; and he departed out of him: and the child was cured from that very hour.Then came the disciples to Jesus apart, and said, Why could not we cast him out? And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you. Howbeit this kind goeth not out but by prayer and fasting.

  3. Praying, praying, praying…Oh my gosh, this completely broke my heart…Oh Becky…we are praying and fasting for you, Raelynn and Kara. Please let them know we are praying for ALL of you and your children, both in the US AND Ghana. We love you all!Breclyn

  4. Hope you feel our thoughts and prayers. There are a lot of people over here on the other side of the world who are wishing nothing but the best for you and your children. I know you are all there doing your share of praying as well.

  5. Becky,You and your kids are in our prayers. I will keep watching and praying for you all. Please let me know if I can be of assistance with anything when I come on Monday.Sandy Garzia

  6. Becky, My heart is breaking for you! I will pray for you today …on my knees, as well as in my heart. Look to the Savior to bring you peace.

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