FPD ran the marathon on the day that happened to be my birthday. None of the kids remembered. They behaved like rotten little eggs. It was bad. Seven kids in a hotel room, on my birthday, with rotten egg behavior. It wasn’t pretty. But, FPD climbed the mountain and we finally went out for a little fun time. We visited Garden of the Gods Park with the family of Giggles’ BFF. The emotion of it all absolutely got to Giggles. Between being reunited with her BFF and now having to leave again and forgetting her mom’s birthday (which she is old enough to feel really bad about), this is what we got.
Grieving went on a lot during this vacation. Giggles beats herself up when she hurts anyone’s feelings. I told her that I was sad that people forgot to even say happy birthday to me. I asked all the kids how they would feel if that happened to them. Giggles told me that it happened to her in Ghana, and that it felt awful, that coming here was the first time she was going to have a special birthday. I told her that it would make her feel bad if I forgot. Did she think that meant I was going to forget? Was she thinking about Ghana? Did she just feel bad that I felt bad? Either way, she was sad. ShyGuy was sad a lot too. He is always sad when we have tons of fun. He was able to tell me this time that he felt sad inside because little brother wasn’t with us to enjoy all the fun. He felt that way on his birthday, he feels that way on vacation. I was honest with him that little brother will never be with us. His mother wants him to live with her. It hurts my heart. Life is hard. Grief is hard.
Bubbly was her usual self. Trying to cram herself into tiny little spaces between the rocks and climb the cliffs to her doom. We have to watch her every single second.
She survived the hike and we all went out to enjoy some ice cream. After running for 6.75 hours, FPD had burned more calories then he could ever possibly eat in one day. So, he enjoyed a waffle cone as big as his head.
All in all, it was a wonderful trip. And, I am officially old.
who is now 32.