Highs and Lows.

The last couple of weeks have been filled with peaks and valleys.  We peaked with our annual trip to Disney World.  We are so blessed to be able to take these types of trip as a family.  We’re a large family, and for so many large family, these types of trips are impossible.

I’m abundantly blessed to be mom to these amazing seven children.  Earlier this month, we began the process to add one more to our crew.  We prayed that Hope would become the eighth member of the FullPlate Family.  It turns out that Liberia’s adoption process is a lot like Ghana, the rules change with no notice, arbitrary decisions are made that don’t make any sense and no one feels any real motivation to make anything happen for a little girl who needs a family.  
We hit a valley when we were told this might not happen for us.  I can’t operate in another unethical system.  I just don’t know that I have the fight left in me to re-live what happened in Ghana.  So, we’ll continue forward, but there are no words to describe how I feel about this.  I’m so conflicted.  Part of me feels like it’s a betrayal to be sad about the one child I might not have when I have seven amazing miracles.  The other part of me wants to punch someone.   Hope needs a family.  Is it really so hard?  
The don’t call it the adoption rollercoaster for nothing.  
who is hoping for another peak soon.  

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