The Night Before Activation

Dear Gigi,

It’s the night before the activation of your Cochlear Implant.  This has been a LONG time coming, sweet pea.  A Facebook memory just popped up yesterday reminding me that it was a year ago now when you received your first hearing aids.  A year.  That is not normal.  Some kids have Cochlear Implants placed and activated within three months of arriving in the U.S. through adoption.

I’m glad we took our time to decide if this was right for you.  I’m so sorry that you had to go through so much pain to finally reach this point.

Before tomorrow, there are a couple of things I want to say to you.  I know that you won’t be able to read this for awhile, but this is a great way for me to journal for you for the future.

I want you to know that we aren’t doing this to change you.  We love you just the way you are.  We are going to continue to try to learn as much sign as we can.  We would never expect you to learn to speak just for us.  If you never say a word, we love you to bits still.

We’re doing this to give you more options, and more opportunities for bilingualism.  I want you to be able to read english, and not at just a 2nd grade level.  I want you to read at grade level.  This tool will make that easier.

If it doesn’t work, I will be sad, but only because you went through all of this only to have that be the outcome.  I will never, ever be sad about who you are.

You are my sweet girl, forever and for always, no matter what.  Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey.

–FullPlateMom, who can’t wait to see what tomorrow brings.

3 thoughts on “The Night Before Activation

  1. This is an exciting and scary time. We’ve had five kids activated so far and it is a blessing for them to have the extra help with hearing. Bu… it is certainly a unique path for each of the kids. We will keep you all in our prayers as you walk through these activation weeks.

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